The real reason...

Ok, for a very long time now and I was trying to solve the mystery! The real reason behind the continuous depression I was facing or trying to run away from... the ugly feeling of being so overwhelmed.

I guess I know it now or at least i know the big part behind it... it's not about sitting home or going out, not about having new friends or losing some, not about changing the way you look at life, not even about CHANGE... it has nothing to do with having a busy schedule, or travelling...
it's not about buying new things, or having new hobbies!

For years the closest person to my heart have been going through hell... from bad to worse... nothing looked bright.. not even life itself! And as an extremely sensitive person who feels with others' pain and misery, I had my share of that as well...

The kind of life she's having now and all the hard decisions she's making, her determination and real strength, the right tough actions she's finally taking, the faith, all this makes me so proud of her...

So this is for her... to tell her how much i love her! How much she means to me, and how much im proud of her... She's finally on the right track... I've been there, through it all, and i know it's time... it's time for you to have some happiness because you deserve it! Im glad life is treating you well, and giving you some of what you deserve... because you have the kindest heart, the purest spirit... you deserve the best of the best! Good luck, it's finally happening....