Simply ME...

A star or a rainy cloud,,, realistic or a dreamer,,, tough or emotional,,, a butterfly or a dolphin,,, it is all about me reflecting the transparent me!

Saturday, October 31, 2009

contemporary & modern

I just love them - those arc floor lamps.
They make rooms look cosier and so very stylish. I want it and I will get it.

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Friday, October 30, 2009

Glad it's back

For the first time ever I am happy that it's raining, not only that but I am happy that winter is coming.. this year winter for me is a reminder of sweet things!

It is the coziness of being home.. being warm when it is cold outside. It is a reminder of LH leather gloves, hat and yellow/ dark blue scarves. It is drinking hot coffe/ hot chocolate and tea.. It is wearing layers and gaining as much weight and being able to hide it all under big jackets.. It is kastana!! It is sitting close to heaters with a hot drink and a book to read..

It is snuggling under the covers with my head peeking out looking at the rain splashing on the window..

I am glad it's back..

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Thursday, October 29, 2009

to live

We were raised hearing those sentences..
We are stronger because we believe in them..
We find peace of mind when we say them..
We learn to believe when we believe in them
We learn to hope because we know them

We learn not to give up.. we learn to accept and move on.. we learn to enjoy and look forward.. we learn to forgive and forget.. we learn to work hard because we will be rewarded .. we learn to be patient because our prayers will be answered..

we learn to live..

ورزقكم في السماء وما توعدون
اللهم أجرني في مصيبتي واخلف لي خيرأ منها
لو إضطلعتم على الغيب لإخترتم الواقع
حسبي الله ونعم الوكيل
تفائلوا بالخير تجدوه
وعلى الله فليتوكل المتوكلون

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- Never break four things in our life- Trust, Relation, Promise & Heart because when they break, the don't make noise but pains a lot? - Charles Dickens

- In a day, when you don't come across any problems, you can be sure that you are traveling in a wrong path - Swami Vivekananda

- If someone feels that they had never made a mistake in their life, then it means they had never tried a new thing in their life - Albert Einstein

- Three sentences for getting success: Know more than other, Work more than other, Expect less than other - William Shakespeare

- I will not say I failed 1000 times, I will say that I discovered 1000 ways that can cause failure - Thomas Alva Edison

- If you judge people, you have no time to love them - Mother Teresa

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Wednesday, October 28, 2009

I miss you...

--- I miss you Dexter!!!
I wish I can get a hold of season 4 :(

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Tuesday, October 27, 2009

If I can only avoid,,,

waking up early...

life would be wonderful!!!

I don't get it!!!

How can a company measure the English language fluency based on the years of experience.. like if it was more than 5 years experience then there's no need for an english test before hiring, but if it was less then the english test is a must.

How can the practical experience be a measure of language fluency.. logically speaking!

How can it be based on this lame reasoning, rather than looking for qualifications, certifications, speaking skills, education, or any International English Language tests which were previously done!

I really don't get it!

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Friday, October 23, 2009

thoughts of the day

- people who are looking for jobs are the ones who know the real meaning of the economic crisis!

- Friendships.. the more I think Im getting closer to understanding the true meaning of this word, the more I realize that it is still ambiguous.. it is a puzzle that I will never be able to solve.

- I thought at some point people will get over the She said, I said kinda thing... but they still do, and more often than I thought

- Some people are never content! They keep looking at what others have or do, only to realise that happiness means different things for different people.. and living the life of someone else does not necessarily makes you happy

- Funny yet true, some people still get mad because of something they've heard from someone about you.. and you are the last one to know about it! and it happens that you know about it not because they told you but because you knew by coinsidence

- some people still do judge others even if they have no clue who you are!

- some people think that they can read your mind and know what's happening in your life from one or two lines on twitter

- Not giving up is a reflection of strength not weakness.

- Everything happens for a reason.. people keep saying this.. it's more than a sentence though. There is so much meaning behind it, and when you get to a point where you believe in it deeply and sincerely then you can act and move on

- Each stage in life prepares you for the next one.. and if you ever find yourself asking 'why did this happen', then think of the one and only answer, so that I can be right here doing what I am doing today

- Confrontation happens to be the first step to making up. Sadly, sometimes it won't be one of the possible options

- Not getting what you want is not always a bad thing. It often means that one day and at the right time you will look back and realise that it is simply beacuse God has a better plan for you!

- 'Challenge' is my recent favorite word.

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Tuesday, October 20, 2009


and I found those... I love to get the right gifts!
though I don't need a reminder of all the great moments we've shared! thanks guys xx


Sunday, October 18, 2009

A book I will never forget..

& strongly recommend!

A Thousand Splendid Suns

Khaled Hosseini

- Learn this now and learn it well, my daughter: Like a compass needle that points north, a man's accusing finger always finds a woman. Always.

- He liked the enchanting sounds the Arabic words made as they rolled off his tongue. He said they comforted him, eased his heart. "You can summon them in your time of need, and they won't fail you. God's words will never betray you."

- Mariam always held her breath as she watched him go. She held her breath and, in her head, counted seconds. She pretended that for each second that she didn't breathe, God would grant her another day with Jalil.

- Behind every trail and every sorrow that he makes us shoulder, God has a reason.

- She remembered Nana saying once that each snowflake was a sigh heaved by an aggrieved woman somewhere in the world. That all the sighs drifted up the sky, gathered into clouds, then broke into tiny pieces that fell silently on the people below. As a reminder of how women like us suffer, she'd said. How quietly we endure all that falls upon us.

- Laila came to believe that of all the hardships a person had to face non was more punishing than the simple act of waiting.

- Boys, Laila came to see, treated friendship the way they treated the sun: its existence undisputed, its radiance best enjoyed, not beheld directly.

- She would never leave her mark on Mammy's heart the way her brothers had, because Mammy's heart was like a pallid beach where Laila's footprintes would forever wash away beneath the waves of sorrow that swelled and crashed, swelled and crashed.

- There would come a day in fact, years later, when Laila would no longer bewail his loss. Or not as relentlessly, not nearly. There would come a day when the details of his face would become to slip from memory's grip, when overhearing a mother on the street call after her child by Tariq's name would no longer cut her adrift. She would not miss him as she did now, when the ache of his absence was her unremitting companion- like the phantom pain of an amputee.

- 'One could not count the moons that shimmer on her roofs,
Or the thousand splendid suns that hide behind her walls'.

- Her eyes watered, her heart took flight. And she marveled at how, after all these years of rattling loose, she had found in this little creature the first true connection in her life of false, failed connections.

- Mariam had hardly noticed, hardly cared. She had passed these years in a distant corner of her mind. A dry, barren field, out beyond wish and lament, beyond dream and disillusionment. There, the future did not matter. There, the past held only this wisdom: that love was a damaging mistake, and its accomplice, hope, a treacherous illusion. And whenever those twin poisonous flowers began to sprout in the parched land of that field, Mariam uprooted them. She uprooted them and ditched them before they took hold.

- She didn't dare. She didn't dare move a muscle. She didn't dare breathe, or blink even, for fear that she was nothing but a mirage shimmering in the distance, a brittle illusion that would vanish at the slightest provocation. Laila stood perfectly still and looked at Tariq until her chest screamed for air and her eyes burned to blink. And somehow, miraculously, after she took a breath, closed and opened her eyes, he was still standing there. Tariq was still standing there. Laila allowed herself to take a step toward him. Then another. And another. And then she was running.

- And yet she was leaving the wold as a woman who had loved and been loved back. She was leaving it as a friend, a companion, a guardian. A mother. A person of consequence at last. No. It was not so bad, Mariam thought, that she should die this way. Not so bad. This was a legitimate end to a life of illegitimate beginnings.

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Saturday, October 17, 2009


God bless your soul..
I can't believe 9 years have already passed, you've touched so many people, it sounds like a very long time though it still feels the same.. the horrifying feeling of losing someone so dear.. 2000 was the first time when I felt the bitterness of that harsh word, 'death'.

Seeds of Peace 1999

حبيبي أسيل لا تتأخّر فالطعام جاهز!!
جميلة عاصلة (أم الشهيد أسيل عاصلة)*
الجمعة 5/5/2006
* في ذكرى ميلاد أسيل
الأزهار تذبل. الحكايات تُنسى. الأحباء يرحلون. ولا تبقى إلا الذكريات. ذات يوم. وذات تشرين كان هناك حبيب عزيز يمشي في أزقة الحياة. ينعم بحضن دافئ آملا بملامسة الفرح، فانقضّ عليه اعداء الحياة. نعم أعداء الحياة.
في تشرين ذاك وقعنا في قبضة الحياة وفي مهبّ القدر. وها قد مرّت خمس سنوات ونيّف ونحن نتأمل في احذية من رحلوا. هؤلاء الشهداء الأحبّاء الذين انتعلوا أحذيتهم دون أن يدري الواحد منهم أن يخونه حذاءه. ولن يستطيع أن يكمل مشوار الحياة. ولقد سألت نفسي أكثر من مرّة لم يا ترى قد اختار أسيل ذلك الحذاء دون غيره لرحلته الأخيرة تلك؟ وهل ترك حذاءه الآخر في زاوية غرفته لمناسبة أجمل؟ رحلة قصيرة بحذاء جميل هذه حكاية أسيل وحكاية كل شهيد. الحكاية التي لن تهترئ فوراء الوراء حنين وصمت صارخ ما بين تشرين وتشرين.
وما بين أيّار وأيّار الأشياء فقدت لونها وطعمها والأيّام أضاعت مدلولها والسنة أمست فصلا واحدًا فها هو الربيع قد قدم لكنه ليس ربيعي. إنه ربيع الصخور والغابات والأشجار والسناجب.
فالفصول الأربعة تأتي الأرض والأشجار، وتمر علي الحيوانات أما أنا فقد مرّ علي الخريف ودام طويلا ولم يفارقني وها أنا أجد نفسي أجترّ عمرًا عقيمًا، أحاول التمرد لأتحدى عقم الأمور.
أبحر في كل شيء كي أحطم جدار العجز والاستسلام.
أيّار يغادرني وأيار يأتيني وأيامي ما زالت شاحبة. فلا أنا قادرة على الاستسلام ولا هذا القدر قادرٌ على فهمي.
فيا أيها الأسيل العزيز على القلب والذاكرة. أعذرني حبيبي في هذا اليوم الذي يجسد ولادتك ومجيئك إلى هذا العالم الظالم.
نعم أعذرني حبيبي. إنني لا استطيع أن أرفع دعوى على الحياة.
ها هو السادس من أيار هذه السنة قد أطل علينا خجلا أكثر مما مضى. فلقد استيقظت هذا اليوم باكرًا فذابت فرحة استقبال الصباح في فنجان القهوة. فلم أشرب من القهوة إلا لونها. وبدا هذا النهار بدون نهار لأن خطوات كل فجر في حياتنا تاهت منذ خمس سنوات. وها انا تائهة أيضًا في درب المعاناة، أبحث عن العدالة الهاربة فكلما اقتربنا منها ازدادت بعدًا عنا. فلا رفيق لي في هذا الدرب سوى سيّدي الألم حيث آنسني أمس وجلس بجانبي يواسيني بقوله: سأكون رفيقك في كل لحظة. سأنتظره في كل مكان وزمان.
فمن الأفضل أن تألفيني.
وهكذا جاء العيد وكان موعدًا مع الأصحاب ولم تبتسم السماء. جاء العيد في عرس الربيع ولا يحمل وردة أو برعمًا أو شمعة. وبكى الربيع في حديقة البيت خلف شباكك حيث لا أمام ولا وراء للحياة.
أما قلت لك يا أسيل لا تتأخّر فالطعام جاهز. فصحنك الفارغ على الطاولة ما زال ينتظرك. وساعتك الجدارية يتيمة لأن الزمن قد توقف في ذلك اليوم. يوم أطلقوا عليك الرصاص قاصدين محو اسمك من سجل الحياة.
فيا عزيزي أسيل، لا تسألني عن شيء فأنا لا احتمل الأسئلة لأن القلب لا يسأل لماذا ينبض ولا الطائر لماذا ينشد والشلال لماذا يتدفق والمطر لماذا يهطل.
ففي ذكرى ميلادك اليوم تصير الابتسامة ذكرى وتنهيد والراحة تصير طموحًا وكل حركة تصير ذات مدلول.
هكذا أتاني أيّار وهكذا سيأتي آخر. أما أنا فسأظل هنا أنبشس جدران غرفتك أفتش عن ابتسامتك الرقيقة. وأحاول سماع صوتك من خلف الزمن المنطفئ.

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Friday, October 16, 2009

toutou TIME


Thursday, October 15, 2009

* S T A R *

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Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Recycled & FUNKY

I like...

Recycled Toy Sculptures for Robert Bradford ('from discarded plastic items, mainly toys but also other colourful plastic bits and pieces, such as combs and buttons, brushes and parts of clothes pegs.')

Source: thecoolhunter

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Tuesday, October 13, 2009


FINALLY!!! It's here with me..

I got my laptop back!!! I can't believe I've spent the last couple of weeks without it.. since the 19th of September (this seems the only date Im capable of remembering)!! it feels great.. and there are so many things that I need to do, update, and download. It feels great to have you back.. esepcially that everything seems to be working perectly, the usb ports, cd drive, and battery. Yes, Im so glad they replaced my battery too..

I missed you!! BIG TIME

modern, practical and cute

I found those today!! I thought they're very cute and practical.. whether it's ice cream or nuts, it would all look delicious here ..



Monday, October 12, 2009



Friday, October 09, 2009

I like..

Jelly Toy Watch





Sunday, October 04, 2009

_ L O S S_

' Loss could take you in different ways- you might cling on to a place that had happy memories, .., or you might flee from a town and its associations because it reminded you of a painful experience,..'

'She would have liked to have stayed on the train for ever, letting it decide where to take her, so that she would not have to pick herself up, find direction again.'

Before the Storm- Judith Lennox

Thursday, October 01, 2009

Close.. really close

It's a sunny beautiful day.. and I can feel it..

Im getting close, really really close to where I want to be.. !!

Hopefully I'll be able to post some good news from my laptop.. I thought 7-21 days means 7 days, but it seems it means 21 days!!! not a day earlier..