Simply ME...

A star or a rainy cloud,,, realistic or a dreamer,,, tough or emotional,,, a butterfly or a dolphin,,, it is all about me reflecting the transparent me!

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Things I REALLY hate..

There are things that I will never get and I will never accept. Amman for me meant home.. but now it's where my parents and old friends live. And to be honest and fair, I believe if they live in any other country I would go to visit them there.. that's it.. without looking back!

Things in this country change slowly, and sometimes they never change. Every time I come, it would be with hope, but this time I was so frustrated and disappointed that I don't think there will be any hope left for the other visits yet to come!

Things that I truly hate in this country, and those are the same things that make me feel blessed to be away:
- Not being able to go for a walk.. No parks, and you can't take a walk.. not even in your neighborhood for all the nasty comments you'd be hearing.. regardless of what you're wearing or what time it is!

- People being so nosy to the degree that they'd be checking your shopping basket and giving you all the stupid looks ..
- Guys staring, commenting,
and smiling in the most disgusting possible way. For this to happen in a mall -not while walking in the street- it's just too much.. especially when you are walking with a baby!!!

- driving with no rules what so ever! No blinkers when changing lanes.. and cars honking all the time for everything and anything.. it seriously drives me nuts!

- comparing all this shit to the life over there and thinking to myself that as long as I am home or visiting relatives and friends then im enjoying my time.. but once im doing something outdoor it's H E L L!

And what made things worse this incident of an old woman -wearing a hijab- who was driving today with what appeared like two daughters in the mall trying to find a parking spot.. with a baby in a trolley and so many things to carry, moving is not really the easiest thing.. but since this lady wanted to park and people are getting less and less patient apparently these days.. she said something so rude that I was so astonished to the degree of not being able to find a suitable response!
I mean seriously if you are a mom then you should be a role model to your daughters who are with you in the same car, and then before wearing a hijab go learn some essential treatment and attitude basics.. how to be nice and good to people.. learn how to respect so that you can be respected! you seriously damaged the hijab image.. it just disgusts me big time!

Monday, May 11, 2009

hide.. hide.. hide

They had an irresistible offer on the super big family size 'Listerine' today. But after having it close to everything else in the bathroom I realized that visitors can't help but get all the wrong ideas.

They're not to be blamed.. it's just super huge, and for a family of two after all!!!

Im definitely hiding this.

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Sunday, May 10, 2009

my favorite spot - 3

Wednesday, May 06, 2009

my favorite spot - 2

That was my first. But this one is as precious and important, or even more! I keep changing it all the time so that I won't get bored when it's open and there 24/7. This one looks gorgeous with my white MacBook. It's just too cute!

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im so not ready..

for autumn/ winter

Tuesday, May 05, 2009

unlike dreams..

fears always come true

So far, my fears have always come true. And I really can't seem to understand whether it is part of living .. or it is because unconsciously we play a big part -even without realizing or admitting- of making them come true.

Whenever I feared something and I sensed it coming closer, I used to feel indifferent.. and I've always had the 'I don't care' attitude.. with the - let it happen.. now is better than later!
The logic behind that was twisted in a way, and for many, it might not even make sense.
If the worst fear comes true, then I will be free .. nothing worse can happen after that.

Maybe because in my head the fear turns to a clear image of the near future.. or maybe because big fears remind me of old painful fears that turned to reality. It reminds me of fighting so fiercely to stop them from happening, yet I had little control and very little to say in what I wanted or what I wished for.

But now I believe it's a different time, and a different place.. it's a different world altogether!

it is time to dream and to block all fears

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Monday, May 04, 2009

Funny Eyebrows

different, creative, nice music, very cool!

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Saturday, May 02, 2009


I can't help it- but I really like the clinging sound of bangles. .. !!