the most depressing 24

Yesterday was a day I definitely don't want to remember or experience ever again.. I don't want to have the same feelings.. I don't want to go through what i've been through! And I don't want to feel useless, helpless and very depressed. I just kept on feeling that it will never get any better,, time wouldn't change things! And when someone loses hope.. then dark would only be seen.

I had the worst 24 hours one can think of or imagine .. ! nothing mattered anymore.. no one really mattered .. and I just wanted to hide.. I didn't feel like talking to anyone! I know that Im depressed when I turn my mobile off or have it on silent.. this is the first depressing signs that I usually get .. and I just wanted to keep it off for weeks!

I was so down to the degree that no matter what happens around me, nothing would make me feel any different! I was just laying down, with my eyes close and open.. falling asleep and waking up with no real track of time.
Less than a week and I will be 25, yet all I felt was numbness ..

It's funny how a simple phone call can shift your mood and make a world of difference,,, it's funny how hearing someone's voice would give you all the strength you lack and more..
It's funny how hearing the caring tone would make you have all the determination you need to start a better day and give you all the positiveness you want to have faith in a better tomorrow.
Im glad I started my day with this phone call.
Sometimes with all the love around you,,, all the support, attention and smiles you'd be getting from the
close ones.. it would still be different.. it wouldn't be so complete! And there would still be the ONE who has it all.. all the answers... the magical touch that wipes away all your pain and misery.