TOP secret... Shshsh

Ok another week proves it again, my recent haunting fear.. I used to feel it, or think it's true, but now there's no room for assumption.. it's a fact! Im the worst when it comes to cooking!!!!!

My problem in life is that im so impatient.. so now imagine me cooking.. it's the worst combination.. I put all the wrong things together, stir and stir so fast that whatever comes out when the mess is over would be something with no color or taste. I over spice up everything.. I put whatever I see and I always think that the more things there are in one mixture, the better the taste is.. and I realized it's not true in 99.999% of the cases!

The other day out of all the recipes I could've chosen from.. I decided to cook Thai food! Maybe because Im getting to love it .. or maybe because I thought noodles is much easier to handle than rice (I think I should get a rice cooker sometime soon).. but anyway, I have no clue why when I finally wanted to cook for the first time.. and try to show off some of my hidden talents, I thought Thai food would be the answer.

So we did this grocery shopping.. and I was so excited about the whole idea of cooking, I got all that I need.. I had my hair tied up and was wearing this lovely white apron... I had this extra energy ... I thought at least this way I won't feel guilty everyday when we eat out.. but after my big failure I think instead of feeling guilty I'll only feel relieved!!!

The problem started when I decided to use the wrong cooking pot.. I guess! Cause I ended up using hot water to get rid of the sticky things at the bottom. Then there was this issue with the meat.. I wanted to be more creative so I mixed it with a tasty sauce (which I bought earlier), then the very unexpected thing happened.. and there was this strange mixture of oil on the surface and the sauce was in all the other areas. It was the first time for me to see such a thing.. and the harder I tried to make everything mix together in one homogeneous mixture, the stranger it looked.

One of the funniest (in a weird way) things that happened lately is that as I was trying to heat up a toast... I forgot the microwave on the default power (which is 10- and I can't understand how 10 is supposed to be a default power degree), and all of a sudden the smoke started to come out .. and the smell was so bad that it took us 4 days of continuous torture (leaving the windows open and the fan on in such a cold weather) to try to get rid of it. We were lucky that the fire alarm didn't work with all the smoke!!!

Whatever I try to do, it just makes me more sure that Im not a kitchen woman.. I'd do anything as long as it's an out of kitchen activity!!! It makes me think of all the times back home when we all wanted different things to eat for lunch, and mom didn't want to make anyone upset so would just end up spending a whole day in the kitchen.. many things that were taken for granted back then are things that are more valued and appreciated now.. !!