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and yet, everything has changed!

I spent days/ weeks/ months looking out of the same window.. the view didn't change.. the sky was always blue and clear, even when it was rainy or cold, the sky was always blue. A rainbow would come and go.. I was lucky enough to have some photos taken a couple of times for it..

But just one day, everything started to look different.. the view was still the same, yet it was so different from all the other times. The trees were still there, the sky was still blue.. nothing really changed, yet it looked strange and a bit blurry..
No, it was very blurry

Another thing marked that day.. and I remember it vividly now...

There was a star..

The whole time I looked through that same window I didn't see a single star, and it just happened that day.. for the first and last time..
there was a shining bright star, looking back at me.. trying to convey a message.. a lost message... a message that will never ever be delivered..

The star disappeared, and with it the message is gone.
The bright light is no longer there.. though the blue sky and the trees are still there...

Nothing has changed, and yet, everything has changed!

our little star

I keep imagining my niece in one of these!!

And now that she'll be one year old on the 12th of May, I can't but think of how much joy this little princess has added to our lives! She's the one we talk about in every single phone call.. and she seriously has the power of uniting the family in the cutest and sweetest possible way.

I've always heard people talking about their nieces and nephews and couldn't really relate. But now it all makes sense! It's a unique kind of unconditional love that is hard to explain.

She's a bundle of joy and hope. When I first saw her, I was in this numbness phase.. and she brought back all the positiveness I once lost. She made everything look right and bright again.. and as a premature baby she made me realize that health is what really matters.. she's a fighter- this is what her mom says about her- and she taught us the meaning of patience, thankfulness and gratitude.

Her 'rainbow eyes' dance and sparkle whenever she smiles, and she smiles 99.9% of the time! She's the reason why Im in love with palm trees. She claps, she laughs, she says 'la2' now .. she will always be my very precious touteh..

Happy Birthday sweetheart