Yes and No (2008)

Yes to Monochrome




Definitely NO to..

Gladiator Sandals

****---

Closed off from love

I didn't need the pain

Once or twice was enough

And it was all in vain

Time starts to pass

Before you know it you're frozen

*

But something happened

For the very first time with you

My heart melted into the ground

Found something true

And everyone's looking 'round

Thinking I'm going crazy

*

But I don't care what they say

I'm in love with you

They try to pull me away

But they don't know the truth

My heart's crippled by the vein

That I keep on closing

You cut me open and I

*

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding

I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open

*

Trying hard not to hear

But they talk so loud

Their piercing sounds fill my ears

Try to fill me with doubt

Yet I know that their goal

Is to keep me from falling

*

But nothing's greater

Than the rush that comes with your embrace

And in this world of loneliness

I see your face

Yet everyone around me

Thinks that I'm going crazy

Maybe, maybe

*

But I don't care what they say

I'm in love with you

They try to pull me away

But they don't know the truth

My heart's crippled by the vein

That I keep on closing

You cut me open and I

*

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding

I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open

*

And it's draining all of me

Oh they find it hard to believe

I'll be wearing these scars

For everyone to see

*

I don't care what they say

I'm in love with you

They try to pull me away

But they don't know the truth

My heart's crippled by the vein

That I keep on closing

You cut me open and I

*

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding

I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open and I

*

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding

I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

Tips 01

to do, and not to do - on your flight:

1- Make sure to keep the headphones on, even when you are sleeping. Cause you can never know when would a baby decide to cry or scream.

2- In long flights, go for an aisle seat. I know this might not sound appealing, but there is no way for you to be able to keep moving your legs, and stretching your feet if you are having a window seat and the person next to you is huge. It's 14 hours, damn it. This experience would probably make me avoid window seats forever! Going to the bathroom would be hard with an aisle seat and a full flight, especially if you can't really control it and end up awaking all people around you while stumbling with your things and others' things too.

3- Carry a small shoulder bag. Ok, Im not the best person to talk about this.. because I can never follow this rule. The one I carry while traveling is used for that particular reason only since its just too big to be used for anything else! Though I considered using it once for a beach because I knew my big summer hat would fit perfectly there. But I just realized that carrying this with a laptop and getting a window seat, makes you not able to see any of those bags before landing, and no matter how long the flight is!!!

4- I am traveling with a bag that weights 16 Ks only! My hubby was shocked. It feels great honestly.. I didn't have anything to worry about.. it's just so light and convenient. But it might be the first and last time, I had a strong reason to keep it light this time, thinking why to bother when new stuff are waiting for me home from mom's last visit to Dubai!



5- Travel pillows won't work with economy class seats. Even if it's a cute pinky one! It would still not work.. the fact that it's pink and trendy won't change anything. There is just too little place for you to rest your neck. Travel pillows with little space would make you feel stiff and would just limit your movement.

6- Carry a light book. Mine is like 500 pages. It's heavier than the bag itself! I thought I can finish it in the flight and just leave it there.. but it didn't work. Flying at night without enough lights for reading would make you sleep even if you don't want to.

7- It's the first time for me to carry a proper amount of cash and I realized that the best thing for this is to wear jeans. Put them in one of the jeans pockets, and forget about them .. to remember this would be essential in the bathroom though especially with tight jeans, it might be a little risky.. you should be careful!!

ummm, Im too sleepy to think about more tips! Part 2 might follow, if the jet lag keeps me awake for the night..

STICKY

After 14 hours of flying, 8 hours of transit, and then another remaining connection flight.. I feel sticky, TIRED, dizzy,jet lagged, and in desperate need of a shower and a very long sleep..

I remember there was a time when I used to be really excited about traveling.. but it's so different now!

There was no way to spend the 14 hours without watching movies, but the problem was to find one that I have not watched!!! So i ended up watching 'awake' and 'shutter'.. they were ok! ummm, different..

In dubai's lounge, there was this drunk man.. and I spent an hour enjoying all the drama he was creating. He wanted to get in his flight but with only one 'simple problem'- this is the way he was seeing it- he was dizzy and falling down every time he wanted to carry his bag and head to the gate! He was calling everyone around funny names.. but the action ended when a security guy came and accompanied him out!

5 more hours to go! the last time I've been here was 7 months ago. Im just too tired to think, read or focus. I want to be excited and happy.. but all Im thinking of right now is getting in that last flight!!! It is just one hell of an extremely long, boring, exhausting journey.

it's a matter of luck

In school years I used to care about marks a lot, every single mark used to count.. and even if the difference between me and the first student was to be half a mark, this only meant one thing.. I am not the first, but the second.

My parents were to give us anything and everything.. the only rule was to study well and do well.. my dad mainly was the one who used to push us to study harder, and I remember there were times when I thought that all doctors have the same obsession.. they want their children to be the first and best -always, in whatever they do.

Sadly but true, I still seem to care about marks. Till now! It stresses me out a lot. And I still get to hear dad asking me on the phone about my marks! I see it differently now, it makes me happy to know he cares and he wants to be involved .. though at times I feel I still carry that burden and that same feeling of responsibility for not wanting to disappoint him!

I came to realize that with Masters it's not similar, and it is not that easy. It is a matter of luck.. and it purely depends on who is to teach the course in that particular semester.

Masters is based more on your 'opinion', or this is how we are told. They would keep repeating and highlighting the fact that when you are to work on an assignment, you have to state your own opinion. This is what we are told, but this is exactly what should never happen.

Even if you are encouraged to write what you think, 99% of the times this means you are screwed if you are to do so. Masters is ONLY about you writing what they want to read.. regardless of your own beliefs or thoughts...

However, even if you are to write what they want to hear, this doesn't necessarily lead to a high grade.. the key is to do it in a way that is in harmony with how those lecturers think and how they structure their thoughts.. whether their priority is given to clearly structuring your idea and represent it in well defined points, or to have it written in a proper essay format.. it all matters!

This semester was not any easier, and I have learned never to enroll in a course with 'open book' exams. It was the first and will definitely be the last .. I thought open book exams are created to make it easier for students to study and to prepare, but I was mistaken big time! The result is to end up confused not knowing from where to write or where to start.. and not having enough time to copy it all in a neat format.

I have also learned that no matter how hard the exams' period is, after the results are displayed... you would forget how stressful that period was and all the times in which you said 'I don't care and don't give a damn', the truth is, in reality and when it is all over.. -you would still care, and would still wish if that Credit was nothing but a Distinction!!!

just wondering

Good thing I haven't forgotten my password! The last time I posted something was on the 28th of May.

Time flies! I was in this strange phase, and didn't feel like blogging. I think it will take me a while to really get into it. I was also busy with a personal project, where I started writing but with no one to read, and it made me realize how blogging doesn't really help in anything. People just end up writing what others want to read eventually, and avoiding everything else. I really wanted to have my own space, to write anything and everything, but with no one to read or comment..

And I have been wondering whether I want to keep my 'Simply Me'.. and if not, then would I really want to lose all my posts!? I guess not!